"Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life" Proverbs 13:12




Saturday, September 20, 2014

Back in the Saddle

Hello, it's been a while!

How long?  Well, the boys are both 16 months.  It is crazy to think that last time I wrote they were not walking, they were not understanding what we said, that they were barely saying Mum, Mum and Dada.

They are some of the most mobile toddlers I know.  They don't walk, they run, and they are climbing on everything at the moment.  Connor is speaking quite a bit- he's even just started on his first two word sentences (Bye Dad, Shower Dad, Tat Eow (Cat Meow).  Sebastian doesn't say many words other than Mum and Dad, but he has this strange babble which almost sounds like sentences, and occasionally I feel like I understand him.  He is so animated.

They are both funny, silly, happy boys and they bring such joy to everyone.

They don't sleep well and they are into everything and I am exhausted much of the time.  But I wouldn't trade them, they are so dear to me.

And, as the title of the post suggests, we are beginning again.

I am in the process of taking some medication to get me to ovulate and then we'll be transferring our next embryo.  I honesty don't know how to feel about any of it.  I'm scared and nervous about beginning the process with so little sleep in my life.  I am nervous about what life would be like with three little ones.  But I'm much more nervous about it not working.  When chatting with my doctor he shared our concerns.  We had done so many cycles. Was it the steroids that made the difference, meaning that this next cycle is likely to work as well?  Or was it just an amazing one off from God (or a medical one, from our doctors point of you).  And because we won't know until we try some more times it's hard to know what to expect.

Earl is pretty relaxed.  He feels like no matter what happens, because we have the boys it can't ever be as hard as it was.  And I know that's true.  But I love these embryos, and I want them to have a chance.   And I am so grateful for my boys and I know if the only children I have on earth are them I will be happy.  But I would love to have more children.

So that's my update.  Life is good, exhausting and I can't believe we are starting again.

I'm so sorry I haven't been able to comment on many blogs.  I just don't have much time on the computer nowadays and I can't comment on my phone.  But I check regularly and pray for you all.

Love LG