"Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life" Proverbs 13:12

Sunday, October 17, 2010

Hope and Heart-ache

Today was a funny old day.

I went for a walk this morning and I dreamed. I dreamed that this cycle- that one of the eggs that are currently growing inside of me- is the one. That it's going to happen. I imagined telling people. I imagined shopping for maternity clothes. I imagined having a baby.

Then I saw my GP. I hadn't seen her for months (she'd been away). I told her about the miscarriage. I told her we were on our four stim cycle.

She looked concerned.

And I wondered if I'm just kidding myself.

Can this ever happen?
love Lady Grey

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