"Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life" Proverbs 13:12

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

Hope Dashed

I got my period yesterday.

My world is falling apart.

I don't know if anyone is even really still reading this blog to find out.

Or listening to my prayers.

And so, the worst year of my life remains the worst year of my life.

I really, really thought that I was pregnant.

I am such a fool.


  1. Still here. Still praying. Those nasty medications play evil tricks on the mind.

  2. I'm still here, too! I just haven't had much time lately to write, but I keep checking in and praying. I'm so so sorry, dear!! I understand and I'm so sorry!!!! Big hug!!!

  3. Still reading. I'm so crushed for you. I'm so sorry. You are not a fool though. You have to have hope, or how else could you keep on going?

  4. i agree- you are not a fool, although i can relate to feeling like one, too, when our IVF failed. still praying for you (hug)

  5. hi, doll - i've been reading your blog but then my own dull and horrid set in and i haven't kept up with anyone's blog. but now i am coming out of my dark space and logged in to see what's going on with you. i hoped more than anything that you would have a BFP to report. i am so sorry you got your period. i am so sorry you're not pregnant. i am so sorry you went through all of that and feel the anger and sadness that you are entitled to feel. it is not fair that some of us have to work so hard. you are not a fool to think you were pregnant - hope is one of the only things we have left. my heart is broken for you. i am so sorry. xoxoxoxo

    (i'll be in melbourne in a week and then in sydney in 2.5 weeks if you want to get together with another IF and bitch and moan together).