Wednesday, April 25, 2012
A future I am happy with?
It has been a good week. I feel like celebrating that. There have been a few things that have made it good. Cuddles with my nephew, who grows cuter and more precious to me everyday. I miss him when I don't see him. Speaking of which, I think I'm due for another visit! An overall feeling to the week that the future is good. The future is still very unknown. But with the possibility that we either get pregnant in the next FET or stimulated cycle, and that if we don't we will probably try embryo adoption, those are too futures that I feel very happy about. The stress that has been going on in our life in other areas has lessened slightly. It hasn't gone away, it just feels like things are slowly coming together, like it will all be alright. Allright. I am so used to expecting the worst case scenario, thinking that everything will fail that this strange optimism is really lovely. There is no NIAW in Australia as far as I'm aware. I wish there was. Or rather, the truth is, I wish we were public in our struggle. You see, I wanted to write a post about it here, or on my AWESOME facebook infertility sight, but in someways there is no point. The people who read this get it, or at least they have the empathy and interest to read about IF, which means they aren't the people who need to hear. The people who need to hear are the people we haven't told. I guess I always imagined we would say something about our struggle after we got pregnant. But as that hasn't happened, I'm still wondering if it will ever be on the cards. I might write the post another day anyway. I really want to write about my joint infertility/facebook journey. I would love friends on facebook to understand how I feel when they post things. Not necessarily because they will all change what they do, but just so people have a bit more of a window, and can think before they post. LG Out :)