On hold

I hate this time!

I feel like I'm on hold, like I can't do or think anything!  I'm trying not to be hopeful.  I'm getting upset and sad when I don't have a reason yet.  Then I get happy.  Most of the time I try not to think about it, but I can't.  Because everytime I go to the bathroom I worry. Everytime I get a twinge in my b00bs I think about it (incidently- that is a symptom for me of both pregnancy and AF being on the way).

It's so hard.

Beta on Monday.
LG