"Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life" Proverbs 13:12

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

Sunk in

It's sunk in.

I am not coping.

I am sitting in my office crying and I am not coping.

I just want to quit everything and just go home to bed and never get up again.

I can't handle one more day of trying to act like everything is okay. I can't go through one more day serving people who have everything I want but take me for granted.

I can't go through one more disappointing cycle.

I can't say goodbye to one more precious baby for no good reason other than my body seems to be a death trap.

I am not coping. And I feel so alone :'(


  1. I have been at that place. I think that the feeling of being alone, no matter how many people surround you, is universal when you have experienced infertility. I wrote the following blog post when I was feeling this exact same way. I hope, that in some small way, it will comfort you. Thinking of you.


  2. Oh, dear Lady Grey... I just read your last few posts and I am so, so sorry!!! I wish I knew how to help - esp from across the world, but I am praying for you. And I totally get it. Huge hugs!!!