I am falling apart.
You might have noticed my slightly grumpy message yesterday. That was before. The day before the three biggest work days of the year. The day before I have to get up before 65 kids and be excited and enthusiastic and warm. The day before I have to lead a team.
But yesterdays message was also an hour before my work collegue announced in a staff meeting that he and his wife are having a baby.
He and his wife are not kid people. They wanted to have kids, but they have been very relaxed and "whatever" about it. I had no idea. I was completely blind-sided. And he told me. Knowing how long I have been trying. Knowing that I was about to undertake this huge project THE NEXT DAY.
I cried and cried and cried last night.
I am so feed up and I am falling apart and I can't take this anymore.
Serious, where is my good news? Where is my baby? I am so excited for all of you have have good news and baby bumps but what about me?
I am lost.
I changed the title of this post and decided to add a little post script. I am okay. The first day of the program went well. I am okay. Sometimes I feel overwhelmed, but I think I just need to give myself a break. Thumpers due date is so close. This was always going to be hard. I am not doing great, but I'm okay.