I have this dream that one day I will have a lovely relaxing refreshing transfer day.
Though last one I was super stressed about work, and so this is a huge improvement- but Earl has developed a cold and he always turns into a two year old little boy when he's sick. So I was woken up by his groaning and coughing, and of course on transfer day I couldn't get back to sleep. And I've had a few night time trips out of bed to fill his hot water bottle and to get him things :}
I'm just hoping he makes it out of bed to see our little ones go in! (which of course he will).
And then, for various reasons, it's off first to accupuncture, then to work, where I will be into the evening.
Not feeling as confident today. Lay in bed and stared at thumpers ultra sound admist the coughing, praying and thinking: "Is this going to happen?". I realised that there is so much fear, not just of negative beta's but also of a misscarriage. What if I am one of those people who only ever miscarries?
But for all that, I have hope.