I just got back from seeing the doctor, and it turns out my initial feelings from the scan were accurate.
Dancer is too far behind. Twelve days behind.
Doctor said best case scenario he continues to grow and catches up and is fine. But he couldn't give us more than a 50 percent chance that this would happen.
Worst case? Dancer could die before viability (which for him given his size will be late).
BH is looking good and will probably be okay, regardless of how Dancer does. But if Dancer goes down hill after he reaches viability then we might deliver both of them. Prognosis for BH will still be good, because he's so far ahead, so if Dancer makes it then BH certainly would.
I am falling apart. I can't loose my baby. I love him too much. This is a horrible nightmare. I thought we were past this crap!!!!!
Such a horrible, horrible, horrible thing. I don't know what to do.
If you are a prayer, please pray for my precious boys.