"Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life" Proverbs 13:12

Thursday, January 31, 2013

Bad news from the doctor

I just got back from seeing the doctor, and it turns out my initial feelings from the scan were accurate.

Dancer is too far behind. Twelve days behind.

Doctor said best case scenario he continues to grow and catches up and is fine.  But he couldn't give us more than a 50 percent chance that this would happen.

Worst case?  Dancer could die before viability (which for him given his size will be late).

BH is looking good and will probably be okay, regardless of how Dancer does.  But if Dancer goes down hill after he reaches viability then we might deliver both of them.  Prognosis for BH will still be good, because he's so far ahead, so if Dancer makes it then BH certainly would.

I am falling apart.  I can't loose my baby.  I love him too much.  This is a horrible nightmare.  I thought we were past this crap!!!!!

Such a horrible, horrible, horrible thing.  I don't know what to do.

If you are a prayer, please pray for my precious boys.


  1. I am so very sorry for what you are going through right now. Please know that you and the boys are in my thoughts! I am not a praying person but this definitely will be the exception.

  2. Gosh, I am so sorry to read this post. Sending lots of good wishes to you and your sweet boys.

  3. I am so so so sorry. You should be past all this crap. Keeping the 4 of you in my thoughts.

  4. So sorry, LG!! Praying for sure!!

  5. I'm so sorry. Keeping you and your babies in my thoughts and sending you lots of prayers.

  6. Will be praying that God protects your little ones until they are ready to be born. ((Big hugs))