Is there any right time to hear other people's news? I'm not sure. But 11pm at night is definately the wrong time. From now on, I am not checking my emails right before bed.
I was looking forward to writing a post about how I was in a good place. About how helpful the meeting with the counsellor was. About how the fear had subsided. About how I was feeling positive about the future for the first time in weeks.
Needless to say that is all in a heap, and I am in tears on the computer when I should be in bed.
I have a friend I have known for many years. We started trying at the same time. She had alot of serious health issues to do with IF and emotionally really wasn't coping well. So much so that she cut herself off from many of our friends. Our shared IF story meant that we kept up, and I think I was able to really encourage her. I was actually going to catch up with her and tell her I was pregnant the day before we found out Thumper was gone.
I got the email today that she is 4 months pregnant.
I am relieved for her.
But why now? Why less than a week after BFF news? Why when I was starting to feel better?
I am just so tired
So tired of this journey
So tired of being left behind.
So tired in general.
I need to go to bed.
I hope I can sleep after this.